It’s hard to believe 2012 is coming to a close. So much has happened this year… yet I find myself saying those exact words at the end of every year. I’m truly grateful for every experience and look forward to embracing all 2013 has to offer.
This past year has been filled with challenges I never expected to face in a lifetime, but it’s also provided opportunities equally as rare. I’ve learned to accept and appreciate both while growing as a person.
With the love and support of family and friends I’ve made major decisions and followed through. I’m learning to believe in myself more than I ever did before. I’ve become more confident which has led to me being more capable. Though every hour of every day has the potential to change our lives, it feels as though 2012 has had more impact than previous years. Not necessarily more significant, just more eventful. Perhaps why it feels as though this year flew by.
In a few short weeks it will be time to relocate back to America. Quite exciting but at the same time a little scary. I haven’t lived in my own country in so long, so going ‘home’ leaves me scanning my mind for memories of what life was like before. I have to remind myself what I remember no longer exists. Everyone has grown and aged. Traditions I started have been put on hold, waiting for my return. Do I even remember them? New habits have formed, buildings have been built, old neighborhoods destroyed and replaced by malls. Many of my memories can no longer be revisited in the physical sense and only live in my mind.
The next few weeks will be ‘life in limbo’ as we pack up most of our belongings and store the rest. Keeping available ‘only what we used today’ as our method of organization. Even the cats are sensing things are changing. But this is good, right? The end result will be what I’ve been longing for… my ‘stuff’ in one place.
My sister-in-laws and I have been struggling emotionally with tear filled conversations of ‘when will we see each other again’ and similar questions. It does feel so final. However, I’ve gone back and forth from the US to Kuwait more times than I can count. Why do I suddenly have that feeling of loss as if we’ll never return? I’ll attribute that to all the other major changes taking place and that overall feeling of discombobulation.
The end of 2012 brings me great comfort because I know we’re moving in a positive direction at the beginning of 2013. My mantra!
Wishing you all a happy end of 2012. Hope your year has been as eventful as ours has.